Yes I have been diagnosed with all of the above and yes I suffer with it every day of my life but you don’t really want to hear that do you?
You would rather I didn’t talk about it and the reason I am like what I am because that way you wouldn’t have to think about it or show me any compassion. You would rather I didn’t embarrass everyone by acting like someone who has a mental illness and just say I am in pain so therefore I get down sometimes.
How would it make you feel if I told you the reason I am like I am and have a mental illness is because I was psychically and mentally abused for over thirty years?
What if I told you that P.T.S.D means this; Post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) a mental health condition that’s triggered by a terrifying event either experiencing it or witnessing it?
What if I reminded you that I live with chronic pain every day of my life now and just three minutes before the photo below was taken, I lay in the tub and thought about suicide
What if I told you that last week I thought about suicide too and played out the scenario in my mind of how me being gone would affect certain people?
What if I told you I don’t want to die and neither do most of the people that have considered or already taken their life?. What if I told you what we want is understanding and extra care in a world that have treated us with such cruelty? We don’t need to hear “oh it happen years ago your safe now so be happy” or to be told that we are just seeking attention. You may not be able to save everyone not even half but.
What if ?