I remember the days ✓

Have you ever been humbled first thing in the morning by a comment someone makes or a comment you see online. Well it happen to me today.

I have be going around the last couple of years now wondering if there was a God, sometimes denying it  and how silly it all was and blaming the non-existent god for every wrong thing that was going on in my life. I blamed him for all my pain, for all my financial troubles and all the over all conditions of my life.

Then yesterday one of my best friend in the world  messaged and told me she was in the hospital and I got really scared and said “Please God look after Melissa” and that was the start of my reminder that yes I can pray and when I do sometimes shit happens.

Then this morning I laid in bed and was thinking of all my pain and other troubles and I found myself saying “God help me please”. Now let me finish before you all start thinking praise Jesus she is getting religious because that will never happen, you will never see me in a church ( I hate that word so much I feel like I need to rinse my mouth) I am also sure that the God that they talk about is  not the same as my idea of the word God

So I got up and came out to my computer to find a number to cancel an appointment I had made and when I was done I went to Instagram and this comment below was what I seen and it stopped me dead in my tracks and demanded I think about what it said.Image1.jpg god

I started to remember the days when I prayed for someone to come get me and love me so many years ago  and now I live with him everyday ✓

I remember the days on a dirt road in Newfoundland when I saw my life being taken and praying for it not to happen and here I am still alive ✓

I remember the days praying for happiness and safety and watched as it happen ✓

I remember the days I felt so alone and praying for Mike to recover from his head injury  and then watched him recover ✓

I remember the days praying when we didn’t know where money was going to come from  and watching as the impossible happened ✓

I remember the days when I made plans to move back to Canada and praying it would happen and now I live in Canada ✓

I remember the days praying for a place where I could rest and enjoy while I got over my depressions  and I live in the country with a porch ✓

I remember days when praying as doors closed and watching new and better ones open ✓

I am still really sure that maybe the God that we were taught to believe in and what we were told he stands for does not exist but I do believe in praying, whether its just saying it and having faith it will happen or as simple as wishing on a star

“When You Wish Upon A Star”

When you wish upon a star
Makes no difference who you are
Anything your heart desires
Will come to you
If your heart is in your dreams
No request is to extreme
When you wish upon a star
As dreamers do 

Fate is kind
She brings to those who love
The sweet fulfillment of their secret longing

Like a bolt out of the blue
Fate steps in and sees you through
When you wished upon a star
Your dreams come true

If your heart is in your dreams
No request is to extreme
When you wish upon a star
As dreamers do

When you wish upon a star
Your dream comes true